I’ve learned a lot about myself over the course of the last couple years. Many people would probably assume it’s because I came out as a gay man. To be honest, that’s not why. Being gay has always been a part of who I am, I just supressed it and later put a label on it. No, the way I like to look at my learnings is more of a coming of age story. I changed the way I dressed, the way I cut my hair, my facial and body hair, my workouts, my diet – not for any particular reason other than because I wanted to change it and it felt natural to me. When we are younger, the world tells us what to do and we do it. It defines who we are, what we eat, what we study, what is good for us, what we have to produce and turn in, etc. Now that I am an adult, I don’t have to worry about that anymore. I have the creative freedom to choose to do whatever I want.
So, if you’ve noticed, I took a week off of the blog and scaled back on texts because I wanted to determine something more about myself – how can I protect my happiness? how do I apply the same rules of happiness, confidence and freedom with myself to that of my friends?
I started to realize I was overstimulated, saying yes to everything because I didn’t want to have a fear of missing out or pass on an opportunity. I would meet up and share my story and knowledge with virtually anyone who asked and life just got too busy. I then realized in order for this to work and for me to feel balanced, I would have to prioritize and protect my friendships and happiness. I can’t make everyone happy, nor should I. I should just live and be myself and make time for whatever I want. It has to be on my terms and it has to feel right.
This may sound a little selfish but, that’s what your twenties are about, aren’t they? Protect your happy.